Name: His Phantoms
Duration: P00H04M24S
Description: This song is a dedication to the most intense "almost lover" I've ever had. He was troubled and so was I, but he ended up being one of the most evil people I ever encountered. I wanted it to all melt away and find the boy I thought I loved underneath, but it was all a fantasy he built. He was, in the end, just a phantom.

His Phantoms

from Phantoms EP by Madeline Usher

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This song is a dedication to the most intense "almost lover" I've ever had. He was troubled and so was I, but he ended up being one of the most evil people I ever encountered. I wanted it to all melt away and find the boy I thought I loved underneath, but it was all a fantasy he built. He was, in the end, just a phantom.

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I wanna disappear into the dark with you
If it means leaving what I have here
Wrapped myself around your heart and your head
Threw our hell away
Cause I can't stay
Darling I can't stay

I wish that I could have saved you
I wish that I could have saved you

I could not have fixed your mind
No matter how much I wanted to
or how hard I tried
I see you everywhere
I feel your bones under my skin
I'm not done
Mourning you

I won't sing for anyone anymore
'Cause no one wants to listen
No one here to understand how little time we had
or how many things
I'm missing
The intensity of you and me
Was unbearably beautiful
But no one could see

I could not have fixed your mind
No matter how much I wanted to
or how hard I tried
I see you everywhere
I feel your bones under my skin
I'm not done
Mourning you

Short-lived and underground
everything goes
Endlessness of "what-if"s
as winter's moving out slow
You were all I had to save me from the cold
You were all I had to dream of
To dream of

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from Phantoms EP, released December 28, 2019
All words and music written by Madeline "Usher" Polley

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Madeline Usher New Orleans, Louisiana

Madeline Usher is a musician from Chicago, Illinois living in New Orleans, Louisiana. She emerged in late 2019 with her EP “Phantoms,” heavily rooted in darkwave. In March of 2021, she released her sophomore EP, “Be My Lucifer." What was once described as, “melancholic synth-pop” soon became “moody, vampire girl rock” inspired by bands like Veruca Salt and Concrete Blonde. ... more

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